Project or Person?

Hey there friends, family, and random strangers who read my blog whom I'd love to hear from occasionally, but it's okay, I understand that you're introverted and prefer to stay in the shadows of the internet; I have an announcement to make.

Thus far, my blog has had an overall "weight loss" theme to it.  When I started this space, I thought it would be a way for me to hold myself accountable on my journey to a healthier lifestyle.  However, in the past nine months, while it has served its purpose in that capacity, it has also done something I hadn't expected--it has started to define me, and I don't think I really want it to.

You see, I'm actually more than just my physical body.  It's not just about my exterior, yet somehow, I've allowed this to become a place to focus only on that, with small moments of other minor interesting details.  I take complete ownership of what it has become for me.  Perhaps you all don't feel this way, and that's fair.  But for me, I've just started to have this overwhelming sense that I've become more of a project than a person. 

This doesn't mean that I'm not going to continue working on a better way of living for myself, it just means that it's not what I want the focus of my life to be.  I'll still keep you guys posted on periodic progress and the occasional fabulous low-cal find, but I've taken down my weight chart, and I'm not going to blog daily about what food challenges I'm facing (though that really has slowed down a lot in the past few months).  Anyway, this declaration is probably more for my own therapy than anyone else's, but I've shared so much of myself with everyone in the past, I thought it only fair to share with you what I see for my future.  I'm not trying to be dramatic, I'm just trying to be the complete me.

Thanks guys!  I really love and appreciate you and all the support you've given me and that which is yet to come.  You're all awesome!

Comments

[rev. todd]

I'll still be reading for sure. I have a regular blog too. I like to blog about normal things and then have a weight loss blog too! revtodd.blogspot.com is my main "normal" blog

[:(]

awww too bad cause i loved your blogs about weight loss but your right you are just more than your body

[Chris]

I totally hear you. It's so easy to become the person who we don't want to be by over-focusing on that person. Maybe that doesn't make sense. The more I focus on losing the wieght the more I feel "weighed down." So I took 1.5 weeks off of working out. Today was my first day back and it was awesome. I did gain like 2 pounds back over that 1.5 weeks but hey I'm ok with that. I have come to realize that this journey of mine is going to be a slow going one and now I'm ok with that. When I started I wanted it to be over fast and since I have realized it won't be it's really kind of freeing in a sense.

Hang in there and take one day (even one set-back) at a time.

[Lori Z]

I'm glad because I think we need to know more about you-you and since you are loved no matter what your pants size, this will be a good thing for you.

[thingirltara]

what a cool blog! you have skills, girl! thanks for sharing! wasn't able to read much due to time, but what I did was cool. you can do it!